Don't be ashamed of your innermost dreams, even if they involve assault or hugging your step brother without a shirt on. Your deepest desires speak the truth that you can't express every day because of societal norms and clauses in your trust fund. If you try to repress them, you're setting yourself up for ulcers and stress-related acne.
Maybe it's time to take a trip to Bangkok or to hire an actor that looks just like Tim.